What's in a name? (Part 2)

After scouring the net for the meanings of my names, I decided to find out the meaning of my angel's name as well. Seeing that his name is Biblically-based, it came as no big surprise for me when I found out the his name means "God provides." Such a fitting meaning, especially since I consider James to be my own personal miracle... God's perfect choice for me. :)

Left Behind

Choices… try as you may to avoid them, they always have to be made at one point or another. And it’s funny how one choice that you make could speak so much of what’s really on your head… of what your priorities are.

Everything has been going great for you. We’ve never anticipated such things to happen, but they did. And I’m happy for you. I truly am. You deserve every good thing that’s coming your way simply because of how good a person you are. And I am so proud of you.

But despite this, I have this all-too-familiar feeling of loneliness starting to clutch my being. I feel overshadowed. And while it’s true that you never fail to tell me that you love me, I can’t help but feel all the more alone.

You are slipping away… far beyond my reach. I am so afraid that there would come a time when you would already be out of sight. To where I could no longer hold you… to where I could no longer see you. You are not turning away but everything seems to be conspiring to pull you away from me. And they just might succeed.

Along with my fear is a nagging uncertainty… Do you need me because you love me? Or do you love me because you need me? If the latter is true then I know that sometime soon, I would no longer be of use to you. There are people and circumstances that can provide your wants and needs much better than I could. Your hopes and dreams are coming true. While I am starting to blend in with the walls. I’m fading away. And you’re letting me…

And I feel the bitter cold creeping its way up to me, as I am being left behind…

Happy Heart's Day

Happy Valentines Day everyone! May your day be filled with as much romance as you crave and as much happiness as you deserve. And to James, who has always had my heart from the very beginning, I just want to let you know that I certainly feel like the luckiest girl in the world because of having you in my life. Thank you for loving me the way you do. Happy eleventh month milestone. I love you!~

All Jazzed Up

This is it... my dream car. As girly and as pink as you can get. *laughs* I have always wanted to have my own Honda Jazz ever since I saw one being driven along the mall strip at Ayala. Aside from it being my favorite shade, I have always preferred Hondas for their smooth road handling and fast acceleration. I will surely get myself one of these, no matter how long it takes. =P