To You

So many times have I longed to look at your face and see LOVE in your eyes. But unfortunately, that time never did come, and it probably never will. So many months have I spent, hoping that the moment would come wherein “YOU” and “ME” would become “US”, when there would be one thought and feeling to bind us together. But as I stare into your eyes and search for my portrait, I see another face in your subconscious.

Many silent moments have I spent thinking of you, and I would then realize how hard it is to forget what I feel for you. You already are so much a part of me. Many times have I sought the opportunity to express how I feel, but my heart would retreat to its own dark corner, for the simple reason that your heart belongs to someone else. The fact that our paths have crossed just isn’t enough – we could not reach a common destination. If only we could walk side by side, hand in hand, we could go anywhere we want, and arrive at anyplace we please.

For now, it is as though the further we go, the closer we become. I guess I should be content with what I have, because a true and lasting friendship is priceless, far better than a limited love. LOVE IS SACRIFICING… Now I know the true meaning of these words. If at all I should LOVE… and LET GO… my soul would still whisper that I LOVE YOU SO…

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written on a cold winter night... Sukagawa 2006...

What's in a name?

Having been blessed (or should I say cursed? *laughs*) with a mile-long name, I deemed it fit to find out, early on, about what each of my four first names meant. It was definitely fun getting to know the history and meaning behind my names and though there were a couple of surprises, I guess I could say that for the most part, they pretty much sum up who I am. And yes, to give you some hints, my names mean beloved, holy, light, and daughter of the moon respectively. :)

Tenth

Happy tenth month milestone angel!~ You know me, and I know that you know what's in my heart. I hope that everything I do would be enough to let you know what words cannot amply say. I love you so much!

Interview with God

Hi everyone! To start the year 2008 right, I just want to share something that is so profoundly true and infinitely inspiring. It's called An Interview with God and I hope that it touches you in the same way that it touched me...

I dreamed I had an interview with God. “So you would like to interview me?” God asked. “If You have the time,” I said. God smiled. “My time is eternity. What questions do you have in mind for me?” “What surprises You most about humankind?” God answered... “That they get bored with childhood, they rush to grow up, and then long to be children again.” “That they lose their health to make money... and then lose their money to restore their health.” “That by thinking anxiously about the future, they forget the present, such that they live in neither the present nor the future.” "That they live as if they will never die, and die as though they had never lived.” God’s hand took mine and we were silent for a while. And then I asked... “As a parent, what are some of life’s lessons You want your children to learn?” “To learn they cannot make anyone love them. All they can do is let themselves be loved.” “To learn that it is not good to compare themselves to others.” “To learn to forgive by practicing forgiveness.” “To learn that it only takes a few seconds to open profound wounds in those they love, and it can take many years to heal them.” “To learn that a rich person is not one who has the most, but is one who needs the least.” “To learn that there are people who love them dearly, but simply have not yet learned how to express or show their feelings.” “To learn that two people can look at the same thing and see it differently.” “To learn that it is not enough that they forgive one another, but they must also forgive themselves.” "Thank You for Your time," I said humbly. "Is there anything else You would like your children to know?" God smiled and said, “Just know that I am here... always.”